So here we are again with another new beginning in our lives. And it seems each one starts with a prayer of oh God help and a little bit of fear mixed with faith. I’m not a spiritual giant who knows everything about faith except that it comes to you when you get a whisper in your ear as to the outcome of what you are hoping for. You don’t have to be spiritual to have faith and I think faith is rewarded regardless when it’s the right thing and The right time. It needs to come from hope but can’t end there and hope never fulfilled will make your heart sick. Somewhere after Hope there’s a need to believe that it will come to pass. When it goes from hope to faith then it starts to feel like you already have what you are hoping for but now it’s about timing and patience. We’ll that’s how things have been for us this time around.quite different to the stumbling around in Life hoping to find what ever it is we are hoping for but never actually realizing it. Perhaps this is a sifting process so that we hope for the right things? Where does hope come from anyway? I guess it’s desire. No point to hope for something you don’t want im sure.so then we’re does desire come from? For me it’s the desire to look after my family as a man should and wanting to please my family that led to the desire to settle on Land again. Personally I was more interested in a boat but their is in life a leading towards less selfish interest when it’s important and sometimes sacrifice. So now I look at the outcome of the faith that led us to maruia and I start seeing a business at hand. A nursery for Serena and perhaps something for the kids too and then afterwards we can build a house. Of course we have no money still so will be using faith currency again lol.the water tank arrives today so early to rise to clear where it’s to go.but it’s 4am so perhaps not this early. We meet The Land owners this weekend so that will be good.i hope.. so much new here that I hardly know where to start.have to remind myself to slow down and breeth. I’m desiring and therefore hoping for a digger. But Serena bought home a shovel. Oh well I’m going to have to work on that one a bit. A wheelbarrow would be nice. There’s a lot of things we could do here. The kids all desiring to go to school will no doubt give me and Serena the time we need to get things done. It’s still only after 4.30 so first things first.sleep.