My Song Lyrics

You were standing in the rain with the light wrapped around you like a halo
I called out your name and your smile   like the promise of a rainbow
 
I think I like you very much
My heart was beating double dutch
 
So I asked you to dance
I asked you to dance
 
Two months later we were married in a garden by the seaside
Who would have thought that I would find a lovely lady to be my bride
 
I know I love you very much
Like the princess bride called buttercup
 
So I asked you to dance
I asked you to dance
 
2 year’s later we were pushing young Johanna in the playground
 
She looks like you when she giggles and her swing is on the rebound
 
It’s the happiest I’ve ever been
I can’t explain what’s happening
 
So I ssk you to dance
I ask you to dance
 
20 years later and Johanna goes to college in the spring time
And We’re  getting older and the grey’s running through my hair in straight lines
 
But we i mind it very much
We’re still very much in love so I ask you to dance
I ask you to dance
 
80 years old and we’re both hanging Washing on the clothesline
I turn to her and I tell her that I love her  more than sunshine
She just laughs at me
then pulls me close and grins
So I asked her to dance.
I ask her to dance
 
Interlude
Last year you died
Me and jo stand in silence by your grave side
65 year’s we were married and I can’t believe how time flies
 
Johanna laid some buttercups
You know she misses you very much
And I know longer dance
No i know longer dance
 
I remember that we promised we would always keep on dancing while the sunshines
But now that you are gone
I sit waiting and Remember all the good times
 
when my time comes too
I walk right up to you
 
And i ask you for a  dance
Weill be Rocking the expanse
 
Weill dance on clouds beneath the pearly gates
When I look at you I don’t hesitate
 
The heavenly romance
Yes we’re rocking the expanse.
Yes weil dance on clouds beneath the pearly gates
It’s the gift of love that recreates the music from above
It’s the orchestra of love.

One night I was dreaming and I woke up screaming
I was standing the edge of it all about to fall
The lights and the city
The we’re looking so pretty and like a kid in a candy store I wanted it all
 
I had rolled the dice I didn’t think twice
I guess I May have made a bed in hell
Was it good or bad
Im I happy now or sad
I guess now I’m gonna finally tell
 
So many choices and all of the voices
I thought I was so clever and so brave
I thought it was a big game but the price that i paid
When the good times took me on a train ride and they carried me away.
 
So it’s no surprise when you loose your mind and all that’s left are your faded blue jeans
You just roll them dice then you pay the price and your life becomes the truth that you don’t mean
 
Oh what was the reason that i gave in to treason
When you’re heart turns to stone and fades away
Then it’s just a long night
and the dark angel calls and Carrie’s you and you’re cold dead heart away
 
So it’s no surprise when you loose your mind and all that’s left are your faded blue jeans
You just roll them dice then you pay the price and the lie becomes the truth that you don’t mean
 
Bridge
Those waves keep crashing over and over you roll
Hoping that someone can save your soul.
But it’s over now
you know your gonna drown
you can tell by the snake eyes that you rolled
 

So it’s no surprise when you loose your mind and all that’s left are your faded blue jeans
You just roll them dice then you pay the price and the lie becomes the truth that you don’t mean

Thought that we were friends
I thought we’d never end
But then you lied
And my heart cried over you
friends until the end
that’s what you said but now you’re gone
Your ashes blowing in the wind.
Chorus
Oh, I love you I hate you I want to replace you and I wish I had never seen your face
I miss your face
Oh, I cherish forever the memories you left but I have to forget the promises you made
There in the grave now
 
The seeds of our memories
a heart you filled with love
that won’t let go
but they won’t grow barren land
like Romeo and Juliet,
lying in my arms I watched you die
and turn our dreams to sand
 
Chorus
Oh, I love you I hate you I want to replace you and I wish that I had never seen your face
That beautiful face
I will cherish forever the memories you left but I have to forget the promises you made
There in the grave now
 
Oh, this pain just keeps threatening to overtake what keeps me on the ground
oh, why did we ever think that we could out run time and turn around
lonely thoughts that melt like rain climbing through the window pane
and the walls come tumbling down
 
 

There in the grave
There in the grave now
There in the grave

Oh, I love you I hate you I want to replace you and I wish I had never seen your face
That beautiful faced
I will cherish forever the memories you left but I have to forget the promises you made
There in the grave now

Bringing my mind to attention from where it has been.
Following thoughts that have led me to look deep within.
I don’t like what I see there
Theres you and there’s me there
Two sides within
Seems so long ago that we left to go find your own spin
So out in the cold we were left in the road with our skin
Like trash on the side walk
Is that why we don’t talk
Your ashamed of him
Chorus
but don’t you see theirs enough
love for both of us
just open your heart
and let all the darkness
just fall away
If I hold your hand, I’m afraid you might think that I care
Wiping the brow of a child who aint going nowhere
Then after all hopes gone theirs no-one to count on
and you just drift away
promises broken like scars that are etched in your brain
triggers are common place weapons that take what remains
and all they will find their, a man out of nowhere
no longer the same
But you don’t seem to mind
Like a dream gone blind
You just close your eyes
You’re wasting your time but it doesn’t matter

but don’t you see theirs enough
love for both of us
just open your   heart
and let all the dark
just fall away

You brought your love down
I swung on your arm
and I remember how I wept and how you kept me calm
in the storms and in the rain I’ll never been the same
How can you understand this
 
Like a child to you and like a Dad to me
Just Being near you
it helped me to breathe
Like a bear in the night when you were out of sight
And things were under my bed
 
chorus
Oh oh father dear I still need you here oh but you were on the move
You said you had to go the time was overdue and you had to find a new groove
 
I called your name time and time again
but there is silence in return and it makes me burn
the words I never got to say so maybe you would hear and stay
ill always love you
 
oh how will I survive in a world im locked inside when you took away the key
so I hope you hear me calling when you’re over the blue or I’ll never understand you
 
father don’t forget I know you have regrets oh but I will still forgive you
I will make sure you know that before you go ill aways remember you.
 
take my heart with you
maybe there’s still time
you know how much I love you
It’s a love that’s hard to find
will we meet again  where boys turn into men and I can hope to be one
 
Chorus
Oh oh father dear I still need you here oh but you were on the move
You said you had to go the time was overdue and you had to find your own groove
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

Oh oh father dear I still need you here oh but you were on the move
You said you had to go the time was overdue and you had to find a new groove

Across The ocean
That’s where my love has gone
How can I follow you without a Song
It’s just a memory All that you left to Me
How could this ever be It feels so wrong
What did I ever do make you leave me on this shore
I walk upon the sand here all alone
You told me you would be Back
And I looked out to the see
The war that took you away
Now lives in Me
Come back to me my love
Come back to an open heart
Now I live each Day Like it’s the Last
Can you still hear my Voice
Can you still hear my thoughts
Can you still feel my breath upon you Face
You fingers wrapped in mine
now fill with sands of Time
Running through my finger tips
one last Time

You were the rock You were the Stone Why did you leave me here alone
Love me

Honey I know inside that you love me But this heart just ain’t feeling it right now I know you said we’d always be together But sometimes you feel like winter snow What I need is a little reassurance It feels like I’m about to watch you You don’t take my hand when we are walking And the smile you once had doesn’t seem to show Chorus Remember how you told me that you loved My dark hair was the thing that drew you My olive skin reminded you of the ocean And your fingers wrapped in mine As you leaned in You made me feel like I was your ocean My dark eyes the pools of love beheld You were the man I gave myself to How did such a fire become so old

You know even ships that sail must have a wind if they prevail We aren’t the kind to be living on the land You pulled me out to the ocean and said we’re setting Sail But the doldrums were not made for ship or man.

Little boxes on the timeline
Each door to close means someone is left behind
I wasn’t trying to be unkind
But I had to keep moving on or stop because I don’t wanna find the end of the line
Sometimes I look back but only slightly
Because I can no longer get there like I did
Its like im too big to fit through the window
Those rooms that look big when your young but seem small when your old
I had hoped I would remember
How I got from there to here so I could leave a road map for you to follow
But it feels like I was told to make it disappear
Everyone has to pass through that curtain the black one like a veil each generation goes
The reason its veiled is uncertain but I guess only some are supposed to know
I feel the loss of generations and even tears are like knives upon my heart
How can a heart just keep on beating when everything I see tears it apart
Some people see so little sadness how shallow that must really be
If that’s the only understanding the makes the difference between you and me
I wanted to be a magician but I gave up the spells for greater things
For honor truth and justice and to grasp the hand of the highest king
He takes the role of our defender and provides on both sides of the coin
His hands outstretched through generations who would only reach for lesser things
All I have left to say should be unspoken because it’s not meant for you or me to know
What the spirits saying to ocean, the sun the moon or the stars to show
There all written on the parchment revealed for time and half a time
Soon we all know his devotion and bow to the end of time
Gods flower

Tell me a story and tell me if it’s true
tell me anything you like if it reminds me of you
speak to me of oceans of the deepest blue
as long as were together and my love belongs to you
Now take me to a desert an oasis in the sand
Lift me up into your arms and show me who I am
Weil ride the winds of tempest and wrestle with the sun
as long as were together and our two hearts beat as one
oh take me to the moon and back to gaze upon the world
pristine in its infancy to God his work revealed
created by his loving hands with every breath a sigh as he thinks about the plight of man from his lofty thrown on high
take me to the golden brook that slips beneath my wings calling forth a joyful sound that causes hearts to sing
like foolishness and laughter which both sound the same but one ends in happiness and one ends in shame
Now take me to the darkest depths where no ever sees and hide me in your heart love when it washes over me
For you will not forsake me even here you beat is strong and I can feel the beating of your heart carrying me along

toss and turn beneath the surface cant hid from the pain
drink to much you choke and swallow drowning in the rain
row row your boat goes deeper oceans of despair
hoping that some one will find you or they leave you there
Chorus
don’t eat the bread sorrows baby don’t dwell on broken flight
just live like there’s tomorrow maybe and get through the night
at a party you cant hide it even though you try
sadness hides behind your laughter see it in your eyes
its time to stop with the pretending its time to tell me why
take off all your make up baby its a thin disguise
Chorus
Repeat 3 times
don’t eat the bread sorrows baby don’t dwell on broken flight
just live like there’s tomorrow maybe and get through the night
Bridge
Take my hand Darling Tell me your grief One problem shared by Two Might bring you some relief

How do I start this Letter It’s the 20th time I’ve tried
but every time I try to find the words They seem just so contrived.
Your know longer who you were And neither am I
all that time lost to the sea we have both lived different Lives
And I can’t bring back your yesterdays
or say I’m sorry I missed each day
I wish it didn’t happen the way it did
but wishes don’t do nothing anyway
All the times you were wondering thinking that maybe i just didn’t care
I tried to make amends for everything but that really wasn’t going nowhere I waited for an ocean of deliverance I waited for a savoir to come And when he came I got absolution and a chance to start all over again.
But maybe there’s still something to say to you
to maybe ease your mind I
t didn’t end the way it should’ve but I tried to leave some clues to Find
I had lot of things to learn my love
but maybe it had seemed rather Cruel
The way I just walked away from you but it was all that I could think of to do
Forces are at work in the world sometimes and some lead to good Some to sin
I was never the master of anything Just a puppet on a string
Rejection is like a force of nature dear a magnet to an open flame
burning into Cinders everything leaving us empty and just the Same
We sit at the table of sorrows Bowing heads there and worshipping ghosts that steal beg and borrow and take everything that we love most
We live in a world of confusion Its like a mist hanging over our eye’s
Walking in a cloud of delusion Until were face to face with our own demise So I know i can’t fix the yesterday and I barely make it through everyday
If I wasn’t there to love you 20 years ago how can I even wipe one tear Away
can’t be the role I never was The role I never had anyway
I have felt the sting of bitterness of growing up without a dad to show the way
I stepped away from the table and left the cards where they lay
I stepped out of my mind to write this letter just to say
Time to bring it from the depth of my heart I don’t wanna feed you a line
it sure hurts to write this last Part Are you sure that you wanna go through with This
Will it give you what you think your looking for Or just another thing to be sorry about
sorry that you ever knocked on the door
So now im at the end of my letter and maybe it’s not what you expected to hear
i hope it says something to show you at least that i never wanted to leave you there.
playing tunes to call the piper creating books within the writer Black ink from my eraser Smeared across the paper you were precious but without favour I wasn’t there and that’s my failure I’m so sorry is what i,m saying and for you I will always be praying. Love Dad

I hate watching you suffer
I hate standing aloof in the shadows
Wondering if you will be ok or if you will drown in the Shallows.
It’s hard to be without Power
To not have the ability to change
All the catastrophic instances the blood the tears and the pain
If I were a rich man
I could steal you away like and eagle
Higher than calamity can go higher than all the people
My child would that I could save you
From all the griefs you bare
In all your constellations to carry you far from here
But I am a lowly poor man
No bounty do I possess
To redeem your soul from ransom
Though my heart may feel it’s quest
I can only wipe away the tears
That fall upon the cheeks
Of a precious child or God
Whom of good he often speaks
That your years will still be filled
With precious times and seasons
And if for now some suffering transpires
Please know he has his reasons
I pray for a morning with new Mercy
A way to find the light
And leave the outer darkness
And those who chose that plight

I used to think the world was dark The way it was shown to meSo in the temple at the altar With a kiss we made promises like thieves The day I saw it in your eyes They held no place for you or me after all we Sacrificed Both of us were still lonely Chorus come young blood it whispered you can have the Moon Come young love I’ll even give the stars to You And All the dreams you have start dying Cause the man in moon was always lying Don’t give it all Away Maybe all we really wanted is to be a little happy But who could see the fire that burnt inside of you and meI wish that I had understood the things controlling Me But the moon had put my mind to sleep and then we had the baby Chorus come young bloods it whispered you can have the Moon Come young love I’ll even give the sun to You And All the while the child’s crying Cause the man in the moon was always lying Bridge Love is patient Love is Kind There’s no hurry Give it time. Time to Reason Think it through Think about who’s talking to you Love is seeing what’s within Is anybody Listening Oh come young bloods it whispered you can have the moon Come young loves I’ll even give the world to You And in the end your blood he buying all the young bloods he’s mesmerising

Sailor man in a row boat in an deep blue Sea She just wants — your devotion but all you want to do is leave For To many years –you have drifted through the sheltered Shores Hoping to find the right connection someone to be yours
Chorus
Oh no one is perfect No one is pure you will regret it If you leave her standing on the shore

For too many years you been a loner kind-of a self made Man But to tell the truth you just been lonely you were your biggest Fan Just admit it to yourself you been afraid to let her in never trusted what you might find You might just get hurt again
Chorus
Her love is frightened She’s probably hurt Too But if you Open Then do the same for you

You go into your isolation You enter so willingly And leave her with this separation To dry up like the autumn leaves She can maybe do one season untill you know what you Want But she won’t- keep on waiting for you when the spring time comes.

I am broken
I am broken
I am broken by you
I’ve been broken
To peices
been run over
By you
All my friends
They look upon me
They are astounded
What a mess
They think I’ve done
Something atrocious
Something so faithless
To be like this
I say I did nothing wrong
I sang the songs
I prayed the prayers
I came along
I said the words
I read the book
And now They stare
Now they look
What have I done lord
That you are this way
with me
What have I done God
I am so broken
Where are you
I’m not prospering lord
I’m not prospering lord
Where are my rings
And my garments lord
I’m not standing out
No one hears me shout
In silence I sit with my pain
Oh god –have you forsaken me
I feel so alone
Oh my god
Why are you shaking me
Why are you shaking me
I feel so alone
God God I need you
Cause no one can heal me
Like you do
God
you are all powerful
You are almighty
You are my strength
God I need you
Oh lord I need you
Please pour out your love
On my broken heart
Lord how I need you
I come near you in my heart
I’m not coming to you with my lips
This is the cry of my heart
Lord you know my shame
You know the contempt
That I felt For those who deny your words
Yet I know I
Also went astray
And I delivered bad instead of good
as is our way
Lord I am broken
Yes I am broken
Oh lord I’m broken
Have mercy on me
Lord I am broken
Here is my token
These Tears upon my face
This is my disgrace.