A few weeks ago we were heading into nelson to do some shopping and just as we got to a set of lights we saw this white van in a car sales Yard and I thought, we should look at it. There I dismissed the idea. later I remembered and brought it up to Serena and she noticed it too. We both had this sence that we should go and enquire about it. Neither of us new why. So we just went home instead. The next time I went to nelson it was in an ambulance again with a racing heart beat. Another night of uncertainty and those poor miserable nurse’s that had to put up with me snoring. I had three hours sleep and was covid tested at 6 am. Nothing showed so I waited to see the doctor and was told that a defibrillator implanted in my chest could help with the signals that were getting crossed where the heart scarring was. I did mention the breakthrough science in the states that was thought to be able to disolve scar tissue but we both new that would never likely be a solution in new Zealand. I remember that story of how they had to cobble bits from a vacuum cleaner to get the heart lung machine working back when sir Brian Boyds was doing heart surgery. No that advanced medicine isn’t for us. Sometimes discovery only Leeds to disappointment. Serena was on the way to break me out so I waited patiently and eventually got my discharge papers and decided to go for a walk. It was hot and my body felt heavy. Me and exercise have never been friends. While I was waiting I kept thinking about the van. I figured well we were in nelson anyway so why not. So when Serena arrived I suggested looking at the van and she agreed. We had a test drive, signed up for finance and then went to a park and waited for the verdict. It was $43000 and it wasn’t a boat. What we’re we doing? I had to pee so I stopped by the toilet and stood their thinking about this situation and I had a sence god was talking to me. It felt like he was saying two things. The first was that he was going to take care of me. Right then I was quite aware that I was a male and felt a little bit put out that I should need to be taken care of. It felt almost queer but as I digested this over the next week I realized I was actually in need of being taken care of more than I liked to admit. The other thing that I felt he said was he was giving us the van. I didn’t really know why we needed a van and the thought that we would qualify for a loan of that size with me on a sickness income was almost laughable. But I’ve learned that when I get these prompts to do stuff it pays to do it. So I basically told god why do I want a van and what about the boat? So with silence following me I went outside and told Serena. The next phone call was to inform us we had been approved for the loan with low interest. It would be a few days before we could actually get the thing and take it home so we left nelson and just puzzled over it.The kids were very excited when we left to get the newish van but didn’t want to go all the way to nelson again so me and Serena went alone. We both still didn’t know why we were doing this. But we signed some more paperwork and drove home in separate vehicles. On the way home the voice returned when I thought about the repayments. It said “I’m going to bless you. Little be known to me Serena was having the same words as she drove our old car home.I should probably have felt like an idiot really. Like I’ve come unhinged or something and I’ve introduced crazy to my wife as well. But I felt calm and at peace about it without really knowing why.So now we are the proud or shall I say bewildered owners of a $43000 van.it hasent escaped my attention that some might be wondering about my sanity at this point. All I can say is that ive yet to regret the time’s I have followed through like this. But have many regrets when I haven’t.
