we call them a sea saw in new Zealand ..you sit on one end and someone else sits on the other and there is a pivot point in the middle so you can be either up or down.
I was a bit mean to my sister once and when she was in the air at her end I jumped off and she came down hard. Not a very nice thing to do for a Brother. Sometimes I’m disappointed in myself by my own behaviour. Perhaps we all find times we dislike our choices if not our actual selves. I really want to be a better person but I don’t find it easy to go through the process of getting There. Perhaps that’s why we admire humble so much because they actually did go through the process of getting to that place. So I kind swing from one place to another in many ways. Sometimes up sometimes down and I’m trying to find a balance in between the two extremes. Yet inside I feel desperate for some change to happen. I don’t even know what that would look like but I would love to have more of something deeper in my life. Again unknown as to what that looks like. I’ve taken to writing songs again as a way of finding some depth within my soul. Heck I have no idea what I’m searching for but I keep digging in the hope I find it. In the meantime I’m trying to avoid extreme decisions or distractions. Somewhere there must be a Ballance.