Why is it so hard to let things go? We had another run in with a camper person who objected to the smell of deisle exhaust filling up his camper when we started up to leave. Yelling at me from his lofty $80,0000 perch. I would like to have pointed out that we were told to park where we were. That I can’t move the truck till the brake pressure builds up or that he did park right next to us not the other way round. But his sliding window shut out anything I could have said. I was annoyed with him and he was annoyed with me. Not what you want first thing in the morning. The thing that bothers me most though is that it’s hard to just let things go without having recurring conversations in your mind and reliving it over and over which does little to lesson the emotional termoil. I try to not let the one situation colour future relationships with other people but It’s difficult. The list of people who are in nice White expensive campers, who look upon us as undesirables is getting longer. The thing is, it could be a situation where a lot of folk are generally just worn out after covid and it could be a long time before people feel like enough distance has passed between now and then, to start feeling less reactive or distrustful of others. But unless we all find a better way of dealing with bad situations and developed more healthy ways of expression then I hate to think what society will be like in a few years time when it gets really stressful. It’s possible that it might make some more supportive of others as happens during war times when people have to work together. But I have my doubts. Every action or inaction or even what we say can cause a ripple effect and its hard to choose not to let that ripple that hits you be felt beyond you.
