The fear of loosing things brothers me. Money perhaps, friend’s perhaps but mostly it’s time. time with kids and family members and things I never said to someone or did for someone or for myself. I feel it like sand falling through my fingers and I can’t stop it. There is a scripture in the bible about redeeming the time. Redeeming means to buy back. But how do you do that.
Some people translate it to make the most of the time you have. Perhaps be conscious of it or aware of it’s passing and finality. whatever it is when you get older you make difrent choices when you have a time perspective and as I suspected I would when I reached this age I look Back more, sometimes with remorse about wasted or lost time or opportunities I didn’t take.
My health is another loss I have had to except and am aware that some things I can do now will also be taken from me. How do I cope with that? I see my girls growing up around me and I’m worried I won’t be around long enough to see them grow into adults. Honestly sometimes life seems more about loosing thing’s. But I have some hope still. If only in the afterlife, what I lose here I will gain there. It’s not much comfort to me today though as I still have to live and lose more here before I get there and last of all will be my life on earth. So in the words of jack dawson in the titanic movie. Here’s to making it count.